So its finally happened

So I finally managed to start a vlog of sorts:

http://www.youtube.com/user/imcneish?blend=1&ob=video-mustangbase

I’ve got a few vlogs up so far :D

Unfortunately that means that I’m not really thinking about blogging any more, because making a 5 minute vlog can take me HOURS! At least with all the effects I’ve been playing around with.

So if you care to see what I’m up to please check out the link. I’ll still check back here from time to time but no guarentees!

Issac

 

Anime fanboyishness

So there I was, sitting and watching anime when this epiphany hit me. I’m actually a little proud of all the anime I watch… Like I’ve seen enough that when I’m watching a video on youtube like AMV Hell I actually recognize most of the anime and totally get the jokes. I’m almost an authority because of all I watch.

However part of me worries that this is NOT something to be proud of :P

LOL! That is all!

Issac

Geez, I’m getting lazy / busy?

Its been a while since I wrote anything on here, and in fact this post is more a “I’m posting this just to post something” kind of post.

I’m still thinking about trying my hand at vlogging on youtube but that will definately be waiting until the new year (lol way to push it off for like a week, eh?).

I did go out and buy a webcam that could actually record faster then 15 frames a second (screw you logitech) so thats a plus. I just have to get my bedroom into a half presentable state before I even dream of letting strangers peek inside it.

I’ve actually been having a little fun with recording games I’ve been playing, and I might try out recording some tutorials for autocad or something like that (since I’m moderately good with autocad). I’ll have to see what I have the motivation for.

I imagine my youtube channel will be much like my blog here, very random :P

Issac

Insomnia… And then somehow vlogs…

It is currently… 12:41am Monday morning and I should be sleeping.

…

As is fairly evident, I am NOT sleeping. Instead I can’t seem to shut my brain off, despite being fully aware that getting up for work in… 5 hours… Will not be pleasant at all.

*sigh*

I know I should just go lay down in bed and stick with it until I fall asleep, but the very thought causes a bit of panic in me. Its like sleeping makes getting up for work that much closer, so the longer I don’t sleep the futher away the start of the week is.

I dunno, maybe my job is getting to me. I used to be able to disconnect my work life and home life fairly well. I guess part of it may be that since I moved out the stakes for keeping my job are higher. Suddenly I’m not just living at my parents (who I know would take care of me for a time if I needed to find a new job), but instead I’ve got rent to pay, bills to pay, a car to keep up, future mortgage to save for, etc… Not to mention that I occassionally make very stupid decisions regarding my spending in order to feel happy (aka LARGE electronic purchases).

So I’m thinking of seeing if my bank can set up a high interest savings account for me, and have some way that it automatically withdraw several hundred dollars a month from main account into it…

At least then I’ll feel less stressed about money, because I’ll know that I’ve got a separate fund. Plus when I look at my main account I’ll be like “OMG, I totes need to save more, look how low my balance is!” because of course I won’t realize that I’m channeling funds elsewhere. Well, I mean I’ll realize, but since I’m so used to only having one account I know on a subconcious level I’ll be fooled.

Oh, in other news, I am still seriously considering starting a vlog on youtube. I’ve been having fun creating some videos of Skyrim footage and then editing them and whatnot but I feel like its not quite enough. Lately I’ve been filled with almost manic creative energy. I want to do things, create things and I want people to see them.

On the bright side I’ve actually started doing things, I’ve gotten my bedroom somewhat tidied (although my spare room needs help!) and I’ve been putting thought into what I could do for a vlog. I’m starting to create a framework, and actually write down my ideas. But I’ve got to make it good and I need people to give me feedback on it, because I need to feel like what I’m doing actually matters. I think I’ve mentioned in previous posts about vlogging and how it will just take so much more time so the risk vs reward ratio is all different. I also know that nothing will kill my motivation faster then knowing that no one is paying attention to whatever it is I create.

I’d like to think that I’m an interesting person but the problem is someone getting people to find that out.

*shrugs*

I dunno. I’m tired and rambling… Its nearing 1am now; maybe I’ll go check and see how many views my Skyrim videos have gotten and then go to bed.

Issac

Some Skyrim footage

So I made myself a wee video with some footage I took from Skyrim; I also did some very basic video editing to splice them all together and make some text pop up :D

It was kinda fun, and VERY time consuming; I really appriciate the time people who post to youtube a lot must spend just to entertain me!

Issac

In which I nerd out… And then somehow rant about vlogging???

Argh! Sometimes I find myself envious of the people I see vlogging on youtube.

They lead such nerdy / geeky lives and do such nerdy / geeky things! Heck, watching them has made me wish time and time again that I had the confidence / motivation / ability to create interesting vlogs. I just don’t see myself being able to do that infront of a camera. I’m actually super interesting / funny in person but that is easier because it’s interactive; I can gauge the other person and adjust the conversation to keep them interesting. With vlogging you’re just throwing yourself out there and hoping for the best… I know what you’re thinking “But you’re BLOGGING right now, how is that any different you handsome man you”. Well the difference lies in the amount of effort expended vs the reward. With a blog it’s fast and easy, I type quickly and can write a great ramble in about 20 minutes, post it, and then forget about. I hardly ever see comments or interaction with anyone on here (which is actually disappointing because it would be nice to know that strangers think I’m neat) but since I expended realitively little effort it’s not a big deal. With a vlog there seems to be a lot more effort involved and I’m fairly sure the response (or lack thereof) would be similar so I’m just really not willing to try.

I dunno… All I know is that it’s irritating to find such interesting people on there and knowing that I will never meet them, because it would be indescribably awesome to be friends with them!Especially since I usually end up watching people who share similar interests to myself:

I just finished watching this one and it was actually what inspired me to write this post. I mean just hearing her talk about D&D made me wish I was playing D&D! Lol, I’ve never actually played it with people before; I have played a multitude of computer games based on D&D though. Enough to know that I’d want to be a Chaotic Good Human Sorcerer with high intelligence / charisma and probably low strength / constitution to offset it. Oh, and to add to this person’s awesomeness, by coincidence they were actually building a new computer at about the same time as me! She’s really into the gaming front so it’s super awesome when she is like “Blah blah blah SKYRIM” and I’m like “OMG, I Play Skyrim!”.

Now of course I couldn’t mention vlogging / nerding without mentioning:

These guys are awesome! They’re smart, funny, and super interesting. I have yet to watch one of their vlogs I don’t like! Not only that but I get the sense from their videos that they’re genuinely GOOD people. Good people that want to make a difference and don’t mind working for it. Lol, thats right, I rate people’s goodness :P

And last but least:

This guy is awesome. The content is mostly clips from other videos but I’ve found so much hilarious stuff from watching his videos. Every week I look forward to a new video from him!

Oh, and one honorable mention:

He was actually probably the first vlogger I ever started watching regularly. He is a hilarious guy.

 

So yeah, all I can say is watch video from these people :D

Geez, talk about digression, I totally didn’t mean to ramble like this. LOL, but whatevs, got a nice post out of :P

Issac

 

 

 

Stress, the universe and everything

So I’ve been under some stress lately. Work is busy. And I mean BUSY. There is deadline after deadline to hit, with additonal projects being thrown in all the time…

It’s like I’m playing guitar hero on expert mode only I’m color blind and failure is NOT an option.

It’s been wrecking havoc with my sleep schedule. Since Monday I’ve probably only slept about… 11 hours ish. Which is simply not enough sleep! I’m honestly surprised I’m still able to function at all. And I’m even more surprised that once I’m at home my energy levels sky rocket and I become almost manic in my desire to do things that aren’t work.

I guess part of what bothers me about stress is that it causes me to do things unconciously; I suspect my brain is action behind my back at times! I mean I realize I’m stressed but when I think about I can tell that my brain is trying to get me to do things to combat the unpleasantness I’ve been exposing it and my body too. For example once I’m finally off of work for the day my brain seems to do what it can to hook me up with as much dopamine / other feel good horemones as it can manage. Suddenly I want to eat junk food, or watch as much funny stuff on youtube as I can, or buy things, or… Well you know, that other thing one can do to aquire a rush of dopamine :P

And I think that is part of why sleep is not coming to me so easily. I know its bed time but my brain hasn’t had enough of a fix yet, it doesn’t want to go to bed, it wants to keep getting rewards that make it happy.

I’ll be so glad when things slow down again!

I was also thinking it is kind of funny how the human body has had to adapt to changes in the way we live. I mean previously stress would likely have come from something like a large predator being around; sort of as an encouragement to get away from said predator. But then we changed the game and our brains had to figure out how to deal with new concepts. Suddenly the large predator that wanted to eat us was gone, but instead our large boss needs us to work harder. So our brain decided that it didn’t want to come up with something new and went with using the feeling of stress to let us know that we were in an unpleasant situation.

Can you even imagine trying to explain a concept like that to someone without the social / cultural knowledge we all grow up with? They’d probably be confused as heck wondering why you were even bothered when your boss wasn’t even going to kill you and eat you.

Which makes me wonder if this sort of stress is a learned trait? Or has evolution manged to rewire our brains slightly?

LOL, does it even matter? I’m sure I’m over simplifying things at any rate (of course, when talking about the human mind how can one NOT over simplify?).

So that’s pretty much it for today!

Issac